Wednesday, October 10, 2007

I need a rest.

Nuff said.

This blog is going private.

Friday, October 5, 2007

No Regrets

He's worth it.

I know you will disagree with me on this one. I guess we have our own opinion. But never think that what you have done or who you have done it with is not worthy. Live without regrets I always say. We never know if we will still be here tomorrow. Don't get me wrong. I'm not a happy go lucky person. Actually, I'm more of a loner. I prefer to stay indoors with my fave book than go out and hang out. But do believe what I say about love. I've been there one too many times.

I will be a hypocrite if I say that I never regretted anything. I did. Back when I was young and stupid. But when love comes. True love. Even though it only lasted for several months, there should never be any regret. Yes even tears, money, and time we spent with people should never be regretted. Because through them, we become strong. Through them we learn.

I read a profile about a guy saying that he is laughing at himself. He said he just realized that the person who broked his heart and whom he spent months of depression and tears before being able to move on is not worth it at all. I ponder about what he said for a couple of minutes before I was able to react. Do we need to regret what happened because it never worked out? Should we say that a person who broke our hearts is not worthy of our tears? These questions flashed through my mind as I read his writing for the nth time. Then I asked myself "Will I regret the tears and time I will be spending alone if my relationship with my Bebhe won't work out for the best?" "Will I be angry or mad at my Bebhe for leaving me or letting me go?"

I'm an open minded person and I am not a fortune teller. I don't know what wil happen in the near future. We can still be together or we have went our separate ways. Things change. Time changes everything. Even people. And I don't know what I will do or can do if my relationship with my Bebhe don't work out. But I do know one thing, there will be no regrets. For everytime I spent with my Bebhe is worth it. Every tears I have shed and will shed. Every single breath that I take with him. Even the fights between us.

Every single second.

Every single smile.

More than worthy of tears.

It's worth dying for.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Lucky Me

I've been seeing a trend in the comments about my posts. They mostly say about how lucky my Bebhe was and how much I love my Bebhe. I'm not saying that its wrong but this is supposed to be about my Bebhe and not about me. So I decided, that for this post, I will highlight how much my Bebhe loves me.

Everybody remembers the "Mcdo" incident. I should have told my Bebhe about that meeting. I was only with a friend. But I hesitated. I thought he would not understand. But I was wrong. He do understands. But did I stop there? No! I continued hiding secret meet ups to my Bebhe. I have no idea why I continued doing that even though I know that he will understand what I will be doing. Maybe because I don't want to see or hear him say "no". Because you and I both know that if he says "no", like it or not, I will have to stay put. I'm "under". I know. But I love it!

During our last monthsary, he bought me a gift. Silly me, I never gave him anything. It's a cute pillow shaped like a dog bone. I will post a picture of it here soon and you will know why I mentioned it. And everytime I think of it, it puts a smile on my face. I'm making a mental note of buying him a gift later.

And just a couple of days ago, I saw him reading the same book I just finished. I know we both love reading but we like different genre. But he tried to appreciate what I want and love. I remembered an instance when he tried playing NeverWinterNights. Though it gave him a headache and gave up later, the effort I saw him put just so that we can have something in common makes me want to cry.

Those who know me knows about my other deeds that I will not mention here because I decided to forget about them. They're history. And should not be allowed to happen again. And here is a great testimonial to the great love I received everyday from my Bebhe. He forgives. No matter how grave my sin was, he forgives me and loves me even more. Not only does he help me get up from my fall, he assist me in making sure that I have an action plan to avoid future mistakes! How can I a guy like me not love him? He's perfect!

I know some of you may still ask me what I saw in my Bebhe and why I was so inloved with him. I can give you a thousand and one more reasons other than what I stated above. But let me answer that in a different way.

"Love was never meant to be explained. It's meant to be felt"