Friday, August 31, 2007


While having our lunch at Yellow Cab earlier, two guys walk in and took the table besides us. As usual, we chatted non-chalantly while ignoring the people around us until our order arrived. We will be having a 10" pizza and spaghetti meatballs. I don't know if there is any occasion to be celebrated. I hope there is none because this will only means that I'm really bad with dates and my memory really sucks! Anyway, back to my story. So as we eat our lunch silently, I couldn't help but notice the guys that was on the other table. Just like what my radar sensed, they're a couple. Not that it matters to me that the tall guy is a cuttie with nice body and the guy his with we can ignore. No, it's not about that. It's about what they were doing. Although I can barely hear what they were saying to each other, their movements suggests what they feel towards each other. I looked at my Bebhe. It seems that he's not paying attention to anyone as usual. I continued to gaze at what is happening on the other table. They are now both giggling about a joke someone told the other and I saw the hand of the more effem guy flew on top of his boyfriend's crotch. He initially tried to avoid it but later on, he allowed his lover's hand to linger there. I smiled and looked at my Bebhe and thought of all those times that I did the same thing to him under the covers of tablecloths at Pizzahut but didn't say anything. I just sat there and enjoyed the the look in my Bebhe's face as he eat. I love watching him eat.

After our lunch, we walked back to our office. Inspired by what I saw, I put my arms acrossed his shoulders. I met no resistance. I cuddled him closer. I think he noticed something weird on the way I was acting. I just smiled at him and said "I love you" loud enough for a couple of ladies at our back to hear us. My Bebhe doesn't seem to mind but he tugged me towards Ministop so he can buy his smoke. I stood and wait outside. I looked at the almost deserted streets of Libis and wondered how many people will be willing to do such an act. Letting the world know what he/she is feeling towards a certain person. It definitely need some courage and craziness!

In the world that we are currently living in, a society that has not changed since the 1960's, it is very difficult to show your emotions towards your love one. Specifically if you're a gentxt and you intend to keep it that way. But taking a hint from those two masculine guys in Yellow Cab, society should never stop you from doing what will make you happy. Because in the end, it is not what they will say that counts but what your heart does.

Love Song#5

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

A Call and A Song

It's Monday and of course, the work seems to be coming from everywhere! I started working at 9pm but I just can't seem to complete my deliverables for the day. At around Midnight, I paused for a while. I checked my calendar and smiled. Time does fly.

As my mind drifted and reminisce the days and months that have passed. Definitely, there are things that I could have done better and there are a lot that I should have done at all. But then again, those kind of things are the spice of life. Keeps it from being boring. I'm not saying this to justify what already transpired. It's just a statement of fact. And I do look forward with hope.

And as my mind continued to float through time, I remembered the "Mcdo" incident as well as the "Transformers". Not that the people involved caused problems in our relationships. That is just to shallow. But it was my actions and decisions before those events that affected and mared my relationship with my Bebhe. But of course, these things are now history but definitely be a part of our lives. It is where we will get out lessons and experience.

Remembering all of these made me realize how much I love my Bebhe. How much I cherish every moment, every second that I am with him. How much I look forward to every end of the day when I get to go home with my Bebhe to our love nest. How much joy I feel everytime I open my eyes and see my Bebhe sleeping beside me.

My reminiscing was interupted a little before 1AM. Another sustagen moment! I haven't talked to my Bebhe yet! I picked up the phone and dial the number. As it rang, I thought of how much I love my Bebhe. When he answered the phone, I couldn't stop myself from singing...

I just call, to say, I love you
I just call, to say how much I care
I just call, to say, I love you
And I mean from the bottom of my heart

"Happy 10th monthsary my Bebhe" - TL

Patalastas - Negosyete

Kahapon, wala kaming ginawang magsing-irog kung hindi ang magisip at magpalitan ng kuro-kuro kung ano ang pinaka mabuting pagkakakitaan na maari naming itayo upang kami ay magkaroon ng dagdag na pananalapi.

Kung kayo ay mayroong maiaambag na munting kaalaman tungkol sa bagay na ito, tatanawin kong malaking utang na loob ito sa inyo. Maaari po laman ng magiwan ng inyong nalalaman sa espasyo na nakalaan para sa mga puna.

Muli po ako at ang aking minamahal ay nagpapasalamat sa inyong tulong.

Love Notes #2


I just want to thank you for yesterday. Ang sarap ng gising ko kanina kasi katabi kita. Tapos ang sarap sarap ng breakfast natin kasi ang sarap mo magluto. Mwah!!! Love you so much!

Alam mo kahit Monday ngayon at umuulan, hindi ako nalulungkot. Hindi kagaya ng mga nagdaang Monday na inis na inis ako kasi work nanaman. Pero hindi today! Iba ang gising ko. Feeling ko kahit anong mangyari, hindi kayang alisin ang tuwang nadarama ko. At alam ko hindi lang to yung sinasabi nila na "getting up in the right side of the bed" kasi dun parin ako sa same side ng bed tumayo eh hehehe ang corny ng joke ko :p

Ang bilis ng panahon. "Ber" months nanaman next week. Parang last month lang nag Pasko ngayon malapit nanaman ang December. I'm so looking forward to having a Christmas dinner with you my Bebhe. you're the best Christmas gift I will ever get! Kaya kahit walang dumating na birthday or Christmas gift this December, I don't care. Kasi nga para sa akin, I'm complete! Parang si Sam Milby! Ok corny ulit. Pero promise ko sa end ng letter ng na to ngingiti ka.

About last Saturday nga pala, THANK YOU! Kasi po super understanding ka. Kahit na dapat aalis tayo, pinabayaan mo akong ma-enjoy ang company ng friends ko. Kaya kita mahal na mahal eh. Alam ko ok lang sayo pero I still want to say my sorry kasi inabot ako ng dis-oras ng gabi. Sorry po talaga. Medyo napasarap ang kwentuhan.

Medyo mahaba na pala itong naisulat ko. Sige balik muna ako sa work. Excited na ako mamayang uwian kasi makikita at mayayakap kita ulit.

Love you!


Ooopppsss baka akala mo nakalimutan ko na noh? Happy monthsary MyBebhe! 10 months! My love for you grows deeper every passing day. Sabi nga sa kanta, "I love you more than yesterday! But not as much as tomorrow..." I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you. Love you!!!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Love Notes #1


Wala lang. Gusto ko lang sabihin na mahal na mahal kita! Mwaahh!!!

Oo nga pala, sorry about the other day. I know you understand naman po pero sorry pa rin. Naasar lang talaga ako doon sa babae na ang height ay parang nanay ni Mahal at Mura. Pagod at puyat na nga ako tapos aagawan pa ako ng chair! The nerve nung babae! Sumingit na nga lang sila sa pila mangaagaw pa ng silya. Tapos sya pa yung galit! Kung hindi kita kasama baka nasagot-sagot ko yung panget na yun!

May practice nanaman pala kayo today. Gusto ko sana magstay na lang dito sa office para hintayin ka kaso hindi mo rin alam kung saan kayo magpa-pratice. Kasi kung ako tatanungin mo, kung malayo dito sa office yung practice nyo, eh mauuna na ako umuwi tapos diretso ka na rin uwi. Mapapagod ka lang kung babalik ka pa ng office. Pero kung malapit lang naman, eh di intayin na lang kita dito. Ano sa tingin mo? Pwede din naman na sumama na lang ako sa practice mo. Mapapanuod na kita, sabay pa tayong uuwi! Ano payag ka?

Wala nga pala tayong pasok sa susunod na Monday. Hehehe ayos long weekend! Ano balak mo? Ako either magmall hopping tayo or pwede din tayong magswimming! Uhm pero ang alam ko di ba gusto mo mag enchanted kingdom? Tara EK tayo!!! Hehehe sana kaya ng budget natin ;)

Muntik ko na makalimutan, post ko pala to sa blog ko ha! Ok payag ka! Yeheey! Mwah! Mwah! Mwah! Love you!


Friday, August 24, 2007

Love Song # 4

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Keeping the Faith

What happened last week really bumped me in the head. Literally and figuratively. As many of you have read, I have answered a Meme from one of my dearest friend here in Blogosphere. Unfortunately, one of my answers was not very welcome at home. Yup! The story of the stupid sinking ship! Just like every good son, I chose my mother instead of my Bebhe. Why? Because I’m a person who answers questions truthfully. May it be hypothetical or not. All for the sake of Science! But as I said, the welcoming committee was not fond of my answers. Here’s what happened:

After I answered the meme and pestered my Bebhe into reading my blog (which of course he does everyday without my knowledge, hence the pestering) he finally read it. On our way home, it eluded me why my Bebhe was so silent during the cab ride. I guess I was so busy thinking about so many things. When we were walking the streets going to Gateway we talked about our ever looming problem about budgeting. And that’s when the headache started (forgive me for not mentioning what he said because it’s still giving me a headache). After hearing it, I started to recluse myself from talking to him for the rest of that day. My Bebhe, who was still mad about my answer, was just oblivious about my reaction. I, of course didn’t push the topic further knowing that it was my fault. Nonetheless, I kept my silence until we went home. He went straight to our bedroom and slammed the door. Instead of wooing him, I settled in one of the chairs and rested my head in the table. I was so tired and sleepy from work that I didn’t bother making amends. For the first time in 9 months, we didn’t sleep in the same bed. When I woke up, I have a nasty stiff neck; I was a bit mad with my Bebhe for not waking me up. I charged into the room to talk to him. But when I saw him awake, I backed out and returned to my chair. When I was about to rest my head again against the table, my Bebhe opened the doors and told me in a matter of fact tone that since I’m doing nothing, why don’t I just go and pay our bill. I just stared back and nodded. When I did, I hit the table in front of me giving me a bump and a headache. My Bebhe didn’t notice it so I just stood up holding my head and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower. When I stood outside our place, it was drizzling. “Great!” I muttered. I hailed a jeepney and went to Cubao where I was planning to take the MRT to Ortigas. Before I reached Cubao, it started to rain like hell. I didn’t have an umbrella with me so when I alight in Cubao, it was impossible to go to the MRT station without being drenched. I decided to go to Shopwise first and buy a flimsy umbrella for P50. As I was walking along Emerald Ave, I decided to message my Bebhe. “It’s raining really hard. Are you OK? Be safe.” I was doing so in the pretense of reverse psychology. Fortunately, he replied. It was not actually what I was hoping to get but it was enough.

When I arrived home, the silence still lingers. And since he’s in the living room, I went straight to the bathroom to clean myself. When I came out, he’s still in the living room. So I decided to stretch in the bed for a while. I was tired so I dozed off. I was awaken by the sound of the door. I didn’t move though my ego is telling me to get out of the room. I pretended to be sleeping. He covered me with a blanket and kissed me in the ear. I appreciated the effort and went back to sleep. Around 7PM, he woke me to say he’s off to work. I just nodded but when I saw him leaving the room, I hastily shouted for him. He didn’t look back. So when he arrived home the following morning, silence was still there. When he asked me to buy food for him, I just took my wallet and went out. He tried to call my attention but I was mad about last night that I didn’t look back. While we were eating, I tried to start a conversation. It failed. When he went to bed, I remained in my chair and rest my head in the table yet again for another day. When I woke up, I’m covered in blanket. I smiled and went back to sleep. Alas, the silence is over.

“Love shatters even the thickest wall” - Anon

Keeping it Real

It’s been quite sometime since I last wrote about me and my Bebhe. And it seems that I am no longer taking the path I once envision for this blog. So today, it’s time to keep it real.

I woke up today from a dream. Yup! After a couple of month, maybe even years, I dreamed again. It was a Christmas gathering and I was with my family. Unfortunately my Bebhe is not there. As to why, I’m still trying to figure it out. When I opened my eyes, my mind raced through different thoughts. One of it is this blog and what happened to it. Then when I turned to my side, I saw my Bebhe sleeping soundly. I felt a profound awe and after more than 9 months of being together, I felt it again. Incomparable joy! I am the luckiest man in the world! I have the person whom I love and loved me back. A person I will cherish for the rest of my life. So after a couple of seconds of realization, I hugged my Bebhe tightly and whispered in his ears “I love you”. He stirred but didn’t wake up. So I let my mind to work once more about how lucky I am to have my Bebhe. I cherished the moments we had and will have together. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes even now as I write this post. I will be a lower than a moron if I let my Bebhe go!

After a couple of minutes, I stood up and went to the toilet to relieve myself. Even as I do so, my mind still lingers about my Bebhe. Then it hit me. I have been planning for weeks about resurrecting my old self. The one people once followed and read. The one people once embraced as their one. Yes I’m talking about Dark Knight or DK as he is more popularly known nowadays. I was standing there, reveling about all the love in the world and still, I wanted something else. That’s when I realized that I have fallen for the very thing that I wanted to be never associated with. PRIDE.

I wanted adulation. I wanted readers. I wanted fans. I mean who doesn’t? Once you experienced it, the body will look for it. It’s just like drugs, only more dangerous. I came back to bed with this thoughts in mind. Wondering what happened. Then just as my question springs more questions, My Bebhe moved and hugged me. That’s when I knew it. I’ve been so engrossed in adding feathers to my cap and thinking that there are still mountains to be conquered out there that I tend to forget that I’m already attached. I was just thinking like a true bachelor. Just like Dark Knight.

With these realizations in mind, I will no longer be known as DK or Dark Knight. I am now TL. The Lover of my Bebhe.

“Waking up beside your love one, I can’t think of anything more grand” - Anon

Friday, August 17, 2007

Patalastas - Surf

Noong isang lingo, ako ay nabigyan ng pagkakataong makapanayam ang isa sa mga pinakasikat na tao sa ating mundong ginagalawan. Sa aming talastasan, napagusapan namin ang napakaraming mga bagay. Sa walang humpay ng daloy ng aming usapan, hindi namin namalayan na pasado alas dose na pala ng hating gabi. Nang magpaalam na ang aking kinakapanayam, ako ay humingi ng pahintulot na tanungin siya ng ilang katanungan pa. Ako naman'y kanyang pinaunlakan matapos kong magmakaawa.

Narito ang ilang bahagi ng aking panayam sa kanya...

Ako: Unang tanong. Sinong sikat na tao ang nakaniig mo na?
Siya: Isang direktor.
Ako: Kailangan mo magbigay ng pahimaton kung sino siya
Siya: Hinde pwede eh.
Ako: Ayos lang
Ako: Pangalawang tanong. Natikman mo na ba ang sarili mong katas?
Siya: Nilagay ko lang sa dulo ng dila ko pero hindi ko nalasahan
Ako: Kadiri!
Siya: Kadiri ka dyan
Ako: Pangatlong tanong. Ano ang pinakapapantasya mong pagniniig
Siya: Sa ngayon wala kasi parang nagawa ko na sa lahat
Ako: Hindi saan, sino.
Siya: Si Christian Vasquez at Matthew Mcconaughey
Ako: Hindi ko sila gusto
Siya: Maganda katawan nila eh. Bakit may angal?
Ako: Wala.
Ako: Pangapat na tanong. Papayag ka ba kapag niyaya kang makipagniig ng may kasamang iba?
Siya: Parang hindi nyo naman ako kilala. Hindi ako maarte.
Siya: Kung ayaw nya, maraming nakaabang dyan harharhar
Ako: Ikaw ang niyayaya
Siya: Oo basta mas maganda katawan nila sa akin. Tapos iiwan ko na siya.
Ako: Kahit ung irog mo pa?
Siya: Oo. Hindi ung ginawa namin ang masama, ung kapalit.
Ako: Ganun. Ikalimang tanong. Kung maypapalitan ka sa katawan mo, ano ito?
Siya: Hindi pwede ang taas ko kasi puputlin ang paa ko para tumaas ako. Masakit yon.
Ako: Ikaanim na tanong. Ano ang pinaka nakakatawa mong naranasan habang nakikipagniig?
Siya: Bakit ba puro tungkol sa kalaswaan ang tanong mo? Wala akong alam dyan hehehe
Siya: Hindi ko pa nararanasan na tuma
wa ang kaniig ko. Ako minsan dahil nakikiliti ako.
Ako: Sige wag na lang yan ang tanong
Ako: Kung sabihin sayo ng kaniig mo na lunukin mo ang katas nya? Papayag ka?
Siya: Hindi. Hindi nya ako mapipilit
Ako: Ayos. Sa ito na ang panghuling katanungan ko.
Ako: Papayag ka bang makipagniig sa akin? Bakit? Bakit hindi?

Nung tinanong ko yan, matagal bago siya nakasagot. Kung saan saan nakarating ang usapan. Pakiramdam ko'y pilit niya itong inilalayo ang aking isip sa aking tanong. Ngunit dahil ito ay para sa Agham, hindi ako papayag na hindi ito masagot. Kaya't sa bandang huli...

Ako: Hahaha bakit hindi ka makasagot?
Ako: Kung natatakot na ako ay masasaktan kapag sinabi mong hindi, o baka naman umasa ako kapag sumagot ka ng oo, wag kang maalala. Ito ay para sa ikauunlad ng Agham. Yun lang at wala ng iba.
Siya: Ano ulit ang tanong

Sa puntong ito, pilit niya pinapatagal ang usapan upang makapagisip ng ligtas na sagot. Sagot na hindi makakasakit sa tanong kanyang kausap.

Siya: Sa mundong ito, walang imposible. Posible na ako'y makipagniig sayo. Ngunit kailangan kong isipin ang iba pang posibilidad.
Ako: Ang gandang sagot! Wais na wais!
Siya: Sa susunod ikaw naman ang tatanungin ko. Humanda ka.
Ako: Kahit anong oras handa ako.

Kaizen and Jay Ar

Nagpaalam na ang aking kapatid na mauuna na gawa ng siya'y may mga gawaing pang nabinbin dahil sa kagustuhan at pamimilit kong makita siya. Nagpasya ako ng ihatid siya kahit hangang sakayan lang upang makapagpasalamat.

Pagbalik ko sa aming upuan, nakita kong nagpapaplitan ng kuro-kuro ang aking mga natitirang kapatid. Muli akong naupo at nakihalubilo sa kanilang masayang kwentuhan. Nagpatuloy ang ganitong tagpo hangang sumapit ang pasado ika-anim ng gabi. Nagpasya na kaming maglakad lakad upang samahan ang isa sa aking nakababatang kapatid na kunin ang kanyang pinatabing bibiling gamit sa isang tindahan. Nagpatuloy ang kulitan at pagdadaupang palad hangang sa masapit namin ang kabilang ibayo ng aming kinaruroan. Dito kami nagpasiya na maghanap ng makakainan at pasunudin na lamang ang isa pa naming kapatid na parating. Nagkaroon ng kaunting pagtatalo kung bakit wala pa siya, hangang sa wakas, nakatangap kami ng mensahe na nanduon na siya sa aming nakatakdang kitaang lugar at kasama niya ang kanyang asawa. Ang aking pagod ay napalitan ng ligaya. Sa wakas! Makikita ko na ang aking kapatid na matagal ko ng hinahanap hanap! Kahit nasa kabilang dako kami ng lugar na yaon, naglakad kami pabalik sa nakatakadang tagpuan. At ng masilayan ko ang aking kapatid at ang kaniyang kabiyak, nais kong mapaluha. Ang paghihintay na aking ginawa, ang pagod at puyat, ay lahat nabalewala. Ang aking kapatid, sa wakas, nakakausap at mahahawakan ko na. Pagpasok ko sa kanilang kinauupuang lugar, mainit kong sinalubong ang kanilang mga ngiti. Agag akong sumalampak sa upuang katabi ng aking kapatid. Kay tagal ko rin itong inasam...

Nagpatuloy ang aming daldalan ng ilang minuto lamang. Napawi man ang pagod,, ang gutom ay hindi. Nagpasya kaming kumain kung saan malapit sa lugar kung saan may kakatagpuin ang asawa ng aking kapatid. Pagdating namin sa napagkasunduang kainan, kami'y hindi tinangap. Pati sa pangalawa'y ganito din ang tagpo. Sa bandang huli, ako na ang nagdesisyon kung saan kakain. Pag dating sa kainan,kami ang pinaka maingay sa lugar na yaon. At dahil kami'y magaganda, nagpumilit kaming malipat sa lugar kung asan mas komportable ag aming pagupo.

Ang oras ay nalimot, ang pagod at gutom ay napawi, daldalan at palitan ng umaatikabong kuro-kuro ang naganap. Isang bagay na hinding hindi ko malilimutan sa aking buhay na ito. Napakasaya ng gabing iyon. Sa unang pagkakataon simula ng ginawa ko ang tahanan na ito, nakita ko kung gaano kakulay ang buhay.

Bilang pangwakas, nais ko ng ilagay sa inyong kukote kung ano ang masasabi ko sa aking kapatid at kanyang asawa na sa unang pagkakatao'y nakita ko na..

Ang aking kapatid ay isang totoong tao, marunong makisama, at higit sa lahat, mabuting tao. Mga bagay na bihirang bihira mo na makikita ngayon sa mundong mapagimbot. Isa siyang diyamante. At napakaswerte kong nilalang upang siya ay maging bahagi ng aking buhay.

Sa kabilang banda, ang kanyang asawa. Ngayon ko laman ito nakausap ngunit nakikita at nararamdaman ko na isa siyang mabuting tao at tapat sa aking kapatid. Alam kong magiging maligaya ang aking kapatid sa kanya. Siyanga pala, siya ang "wafu" na sinasabi ko. Marahil naman siguro alam na ninyo ang kahulugan noon.

"Kalidad hindi dami"

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Kiddo the Light Bearer

Nais kong magbigay pugay sa isang taong nagkaroon na ng parte sa aking puso at pagkatao. Ang aking nakakabatang kapatid na ito ay walang kahalintulad para sa akin at ang kanyang pagyao ay magiiwan ng malaking pitak sa aking puso na hindi mapupunan nino man.

Hindi man kami nagkakilala ng masinsinan o nagkadaupang palad man lang, hindi ito naging hadlang upang ibigay niya ang kayang respeto at pagalang sa akin bilang isang tao. Hindi ito madaling makuha lalo na ng isang taong kagaya ko. Madumi, hampas lupa, at nakakadiri. Dito ko nasubok ang kanyang tunay na pagkatao. Kahit nabasa na niya ang aking mga napagdaan at nakaraan, ako'y kanya paring itinuring na kapamilya. Isang patunay na ang aking kapatid na kahit wala pa sa sapat na gulang ay mayroong pag-iisip ng isang taong higit doble pa ng kanyang edad.

Ang aking kapatid na ito ay nauna pang gumawa sa akin ng kanyang sarili nyang tahanan gaya nito. Ngunit sa halip na ipamukha niya ito sa akin, siya pa ang nagpakumbabang ako'y kaibiganin at palagiang bisitahin at basahin ang aking walang kwentang mga isinulat. Patunay lamang na ang aking kapatid ay isang tunay na kaibigan.

Una ko siyang nakilala sa ilalim ng ibang pangalan. Ng dahil na rin sa lakas ng hatak ng tahanan ng aking kamahalan, at ang kanyang palagiang pagbisita sa aking tahanan, pinalitan nya ang kanyang pangalan at ngayo'y mas kilala na sa ganoong alyas. Kiddo.

Ano man ang mangyari, hinding hindi ko iwawaksi sa aking isipan bagkus ito'y aking ipagmamalaki at ipagsisigawan na minsan, sa mundong ito, nakilala ko ang aking nakababatang kapatid. Kiddo, the light bearer.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Tagged by Turismoboi


Some of the questions are nasty, offensive and DIRRTY! hehehe!

actually the idea is galing kay dj mo twister medyo nirevise ko lang ng konti hehehehe!

so ganito un, sasagutin ko muna to tapos itatag ko kayong lhat, now dpat pag sinagot nyo, dapat with all honesty and walang joke joke at wlang pakeme keme kesyo ganito ganyan! dpat honest tlga! walang KJ! heheehehe!

now if u dont like the questions or just some of the questions then wala ako magagawa, just stop reading hehehehe!

u have a choice whether u want to answer this one or not ok? hehehehehehe


1. Copy paste the questions only not the answers
2. Put my name "turismoboi" hehehe for the credits.
3. Answer all questions with honesty and credibility.


1. Who is the male celebrity you had sex with? (if yes, give EASY clues if you dont want to drop names, if none, then Who is the celebrity you would want to have sex with? hehehe)

Wala pa eh. Pero kung bibigyan ng pagkakataon, si Christian Bautista na lang (incest ito!)

2. Have you ever tasted your own cum? Why? (if not, will you ever consider doing it?)

'Course I did! Bata pa ako nun and I never did it again. Why? Got curious siguro. Hindi ko na remember kung bakit eh.

3. What, Who and Where is your greatest sexual fantasy? Why?

Sa mga nakabasa ng blog ko dati, alam na ninyong wala na dapat ako ipantasya. Pero sa totoo lang, gusto ko talaga tikman si pinsan (See answer to number 1)

4.Who is the blogger that you have fantasized naked? Why?

Dati, I fantasized about my Master pero ngayon hindi na. Why? Basahin ang blog nya ng malaman! Kung bakit hindi na ngayon, akin na lang yon.

5. If God created you as a woman? What is your name and Why?

Jane. Why? I never dreamed of being a woman. Masaya ako kung ano at sino ako.

6. Who would you choose to save in a sinking boat, your mother or your partner that you love, Why?

Kailangan pa bang imemorize yan? Nanay ko op cors!

7. What would you do if your partner tells you that he wants to experience threesome with you and his exboyfriend and if you dont agree he will leave you? (think like you don't have any other choice and consider that you're suicidal if he leaves you)

Gagawin ko pero afterwards iiwan ko na xa. Why? Hindi dahil sa pinagawa nya kung hindi dahil sa condition nya (Parang narinig ko na to from someone...)

8. Partner asks you to swallow his cum, will you do it?


9. If your still not "OUT", Narrate us how will you tell it to your parents? (if you're out, tell us in details how you did it)

"Ma, boyfriend ko." Simple pero rock!

10.Have you ever fantasize having sex with your father's friend? How about your father?

This is gross!!! I will never ever ever think this way! Yucckkk!!!

11. You are in climax when one of the members of your family saw you jacking off while watching gay porno, What will be your best excuse?

I got caught while jacking off but not watching anything. Napatigil ako at nakipagtitigan sa nanay ko. Then ung nanay ko nag sorry at lumabas ng kuarto. Ano ginawa ko? Tinuloy ko. Malapit na eh. Ayaw ko sumakit puson ko.

12. Partner cheated you, What will be your best break up line?

Question is makikipagbreak ba ako? Malamang hindi ako makikipaghiwalay. As long as sincere naman xa sa apology, bakit ako makikipaghiwalay? Mahal ko ata Bebhe ko!

13. Job interview for your dream ideal job, the old fat effeminate grouch gay owner of the company will hire you ONLY IF you have sex with him. Will you do it? (Consider your jobless and this is the last job in the wholewide world)


14. It was noon, you got mugged, They left you naked, no money, no clothes to steal nearby, nothing to cover up, you have to walk 5 blocks to get to your house, incidentally theres no other way but to pass ur favorite enemy's house, who is currently smoking outside his door, What would you do?

Strutt my way home! so what if I'm naked? Wala naman dapat ikahiya sa katawan ko

15. What is your funniest sexual experience?

My first time to have sex. I don't know where and how to insert my dick. My gf ended up riding me instead hehehe

16. You are a Harry Potter character? What is your name and What will be your significance to Harry's mission?

Dobby the house elf. I will be the one who saves Potty's life!

17. Judgement day! God asks you what is the one good deed you have done to be able to save your ass and go to heaven? Did it help mankind?

Nothing. I have done nothing to deserve heaven.

18. Will you fight for your partner over your parents? Why?

Depende kung sino tama (Parang nabasa ko na to ah...)

19. If given a chance for a free makeover surgery, What is the only part of your body that you would like to change? Why?

I'm happy with what I have. My flaws make me ME. I don't want to change anything.

20. In your next life, you will be reincarnated as _ _ _?


21. Would you consider having sex with Turismoboi? With Yourself? Why?

Everything is possible. But of course, I need to consider all and otehr possibilities.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Public Apology

I would like to take this spot to publicly apologize to my brother Khentutz. Baby K sorry for not including your link on my "Blog Family". It was not intenional. Believe it or not, I had this notion that you are on my list. I really need to start drinking more Sustagen. My memory is getting duller everday.

Please forgive me.


It Begins Today

Today, I decided to no longer regale you guys with the tale of how the two of us met and what happened in the past. Of course you must forgive me if I will be mentioning an event or two that happened before. Its just me.

My decision came after reading Jessica Zafra's "Womanagerie". I tell you guys, it's a quite a book! But enough of that. I will not be able to do justice to her book this way. I will make an entire post dedicated to her soon. For now, something in the present about me and my Bebhe...

We're currently encoutering some domestic issues (i.e. money). Not that it's something that will come between our relationship. We already agreed before we began our relationship that we will never fight about it. It's just paper. I can earn it as well as he does. There's no point in arguing about it. Our problem is about budgeting. We can't seem to have any savings from our monthly incomes. For some unknown reasons, we always run out of cash before the next pay day comes. And in our company, if that happens, you're in for a long wait! We get our paychecks only once a month. Luckily, we're able to survive. But surviving alone is not enough for both of us. We want something more. We want to have something stashed for emergency purposes. Or maybe to buy a furniture or two. But that oh seem simple goal tends to elude us for now. But I am confident that we will be able to get pass this obstacle soon.

I am also proud to say that our relationship is maturing. My reason for saying this happened a month ago. There's this new guy in my Bebhe's department. For some reason that escapes my futile mind, he has a crush on this kid. Yes! A kid! Anyway, I was so proud of my Bebhe because he has enough courage to tell me what he feels toward this person. This means that he trust me enough to tell me something intimate. I of course told him that it's a not a big deal. I mean it's only a crush right? What kind of damage could it bring to our stabel relationship? Nothing! Nada! Kaput!

Lastly, My Bebhe is no longer jealous of me sending txt messages to my blog family. This is one of those reasons why I love my Bebhe so much! He's so understanding! I love him! And not only does he understands me, he loves me and trust me so much. this is something big considering the "Mcdo" and "Transformer" incident a while back. for those who is not familiar with those incidents, I will repost them soon. (Lucky for you guys my Bebhe saved a copy in his TP)

"Trust, above all, is needed for relationship to mature" - Anon

Love Song #3

Halika na
Pumikit...limutin ang problema
Hihintayin ang umaga

Managinip ng kaliligaya
Darating din ang umaga

Basta't tayo'y magkasama
Laging mayroong umagang kay ganda
Parang sikat ng araw
May dalang liwanag
Sa ating pangarap
Haharapin natin

Haharapin natin
Ang sikat ng araw na may dalang liwanag

Gumising na
Araw ng pag-asa'y narito na
Dumating din...
Harapin natin

CJ and Cox

Habang patuloy ang pagpapalitan namin ng kuro-kuro ng aking kapatid, biglang may dumaan na umagaw sa aking pansin. At dahil malabo na ang aking paningin, kinailangan kong lapitan ang lalaking ito upang masiguro na siya na nga aking isa pang kadaupang palad sa araw na yaon. Hindi naman ako nagkamali. Siya nga ang aking nakababatang kapatid.

Niyakag ko siya papunta sa kinauupuan namin ng aking kapatid. Pinakilala ko sila sa isa't isa dahil bagama't kami'y magkakapatid sa pananampalataya sa iglesiya ni Batman, ngayon pa lamang sila magkikita. Matapos ang mabilisang pagpapakilala, umupo na ang aking nakababatang kapatid. Nagsimula muli ang aming salaysayan. Ninais ko na sandaling manahimik upang pagbigyan ang aking mga kapatid na makapalagayan ng loob. Ang aking kapatid ay siyang siya sa kanyang pagsasalsay ng kanyang mga naranasan na tiyak ko naman na ikinatuwa ng aking nakababatang kapatid. Nakakatuwa silang pagmasdan. Pansin na pansin na sila ay sabik na makilala ang bawa't isa.

Ito ang ika-apat na pagkikita namin ng aking nakababatang kapatid. Marami na rin akong naisulat tungkol sa kanya sa aking mga lumang tirahan. Para sa mga ngayon lamang nagbabasa,, ang aking nakakabatang kapatid ay isang tsinoy. Kagaya ng maraming tsinoy, siya'y maputi at matangkad. At dahil kapatid ko siya, siya ay isang kaaya-ayang tao. Mabait, mapagkumbaba, matikas, makisig, at higit sa lahat, totoong tao. Ako ay napakapalad na magkaroon ng kapatid na kagaya niya.

Nagpatuloy ang aming palitan ng kuro-kuro. Kung ako'y hindi nagkakamali, pati ang pagsusuot ng mga simbulo, kagaya ng simbulo ng Alemanya nung panahon ni Hitler, ay aming napagusapan. Kung ano anong mga ideya ang aming napagusapan. nakaktuwang isipin na sa sobrang pagka aliw namin sa aming salaysayan ay hindi namin namalayan ang oras. Napabalik lang kami sa kasalukuyang panahon ng may umagaw muli ng aking pansin. Ang aking ikatlong kikitain ng araw na iyon. Ang aking kapatid na saksi ni Kulafu!

Nilapitan ko siya upang batiin. Pero dahil siguro sa hinhin ng aking boses, hindi niya ako nadinig kaya siya ay naglakad palayo. Hinabol ko siya upang tapikin sa likod. Nang nakuha ko na ang kanayang pansin, itinuro ko kung nasaan kami at niyakag siya papunta sa aming kinauupuan.

Ang aking kapatid na ito ang isa sa dalawang taong malapit sa aking puso. Noong panahon na walang pumapansin sa aking mga lumang tahanan, silang dalawa ng aking isa pang kapatid ang walang humpay na dumalaw at nagpalakas ng aking loob. Ito ang aming ikatlong pagkikita kung tutuusin. Nailathala ko na rin sa aking lumang tahanan ang aking paglalarawan sa kanya pero para sa kapakanan ng mga hindi nakabasa, ang kapatid kong ito ay moreno, matikas, mabait, at may natural na gandang nararamdaman mo kahit sa malayo. Ganoon katindi ang kanyang anyo.

Nang siya ay nakaupo na at ang pagpapakilala ay natapos na, nagtuloy ang aming salaysayan at palitan ng kuro-kuro. Dumating pa ang punto kung saan kaming magkakapatid ay nagpalipas oras sa pamamagitan ng panlalait sa mga taong nagdaraan. Ang aking nakakabatang kapatid ay hindi sumabay sa aming ginagawa bagkus siya ay nanahimik na lamang. Ito ay hindi ko na ikinagitla dahil hindi naman talaga niya gawain ang yaon.

Nagpatuloy pa ang aming salaysayan hangang sa nagsimulang magalburoto ang aming mga sikmura dahil sa gutom. Nagpasya kaming mag antay pa ng kaunti para sa isa pa naming kapatid. Sa puntong ito, nagpaalam na ang isa sa aking kapatid. Kinakailangan na niyang yumao dahil mayroong mga bagay siyang kailangang asikasuhin sa kanyang tahanan. Sayang nga lamang at hindi niya makikilala ang isa ko pang kapatid.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007


Nitong nagdaang sabado, binigyan ako ng pagkakataon na makita ang mga taong malapit sa aking buhay manunulat. Matagal tagal ko na ring ninais na makita ang aking mga kapatid sa pananampalataya sa iglesiya ni kulapu at saksi ni batman.

Paguwi ko ng Sabado ng umaga, ramdam na ramdam ko ang matinding pananabik na makapiling ang aking mga kapatid. Ninais ko na wag na umidlip upang hindi mahuli sa oras ng aming kitaan. Ngunit ang kalabit ng aking minamahal ay hindi kayang tangihan (Madalang na nga tatangihan ko pa?) Sa aking kapaguran, napahimbing ang aking tulog. Nagulat na lang ako ng gisingin ako ng aking irog at sabihing ika-dalawa na ng hapon. Dagli akong tumayo sa aking higaan at nagtapi ng tuwalya upang lumabas at magpadala ng mensahe sa aking kapatid na ako'y pupunta. Hindi na ako nagintay ng saogt. Ako ay naligo't nagbihis, hinagkan ang aking mahal, at umalis ng aming bahay.

Dumating ako sa aming usapang lugar ng lapas sa pinagusapang oras. Nakakahiya sa aking kapatid. Unang pagtatagpo at pinagintay ko na siya kaagad. Ngunit ng tawagan ko siya ay wala na siya sa aming pinagusapang lugar. Ako'y kinabahan panandalian. Lumipat lang pala siya ng lugar. Dagli akong nagtungo sa lugar ng mga aklat. Papalapit pa lang ako, nagtagpo na ang aming mga mata. Alam ng bawa't isa na dumating na ang panahong aming inintay.

Mainit ang kanyang pagtangap sa akin kahit na ako'y medyo paimportante. Ako may hindi naitago ang aking galak na makita siya kaya hindi na nabantayan ang lakas ng aking boses. Pinagtinginan tuloy kami ng mga matrona at mga taong naliligaw ng landas.

Tumuloy kami sa lugar kung saan maari kaming makaupo at makasilay ng mga isda. Habang naglalakad, tuloy ang aming palitan ng kwentuhan. Walang katapusan. Ng masapit namin ang aming patutunguhan, sandali naming pinagpahinga ang aming mga paa ngunit ang aming mga dila'y tuloy ang pagkisay. Marami kaming napagusapan. Nagpalitan ng mga larawan ng minamahal. Pati ng mga kuro kuro tungkol sa iba pang mga kapatid sa pananampalataya ay napagusapan namin. Lalo na ang bagong samahang kanyang kinabibilangan. Dito ako humanga ng lubos sa aking kapatid. Bibihira ang taong kagaya nya. Totoo, mapagkakatiwalan, nakaapak ang paa sa lupa, at sa dami ng pinagdaan, tiyak na mapagkukunan ng mabubuting aral. Siyanga pala, kung siya ay ihahambing ko sa isang bagay, ang aking kapatid ay isang tipak ng bundok yelo na lumulutang sa karagatan.

Patuloy ang aming kwentuhan. Sa sobrang sarap niyang kausap ay nalimot ko na ang oras at panahon. Natigil lang panadalian ang aming usapan ng may dumaan...

Saturday, August 4, 2007

Patalastas - Sharon Cuneta

Nitong mga nakalipas na araw, ako ay nalulumbay dahil kung anong dami ng taong dumadaan sa aking dating tahanan ay siya namang dalang ng mga taong dumadalaw sa aking bagong tahanan. Dahil sa kalungkutang ito, ninais at aking pinagisipan ang paglikha ng panibagong tahanan kung saan ang aking ilalagay ang dahilan kung saan ako ay nakilala at nagkaroon ng munting espasyo sa lugar na ito.

Kinausap ko ang aking irog tungkol dito. Nais kong kanyang maunawaan ang aking nadarama at ang parte ng aking pagkatao na nagnanais ng pansin. Hindi ako binigyan ng isang kongkretong sagot ng aking kabiyak, bagkus, siya at nanataling nanahimik na nagdulot sa akin ng mas matinding kalungkutan. Dinaan ko na lang ang aking kalungkutan sa pagtulog.

Nang ako ay magmulat ng aking mga mata para pumasok muli sa aking hanap buhay, hindi mawaglit sa aking isipan ang pag gawa ng panibagong tahanan. Ang kinang ng itim na kabalyeroo ay sinisilaw ako ng mga panahong yon. Dahil sa ganitong pagiisip, hindi ako nakapaguslat ng ilang araw sa aking tahanan. Ang iba ay inakalang ako ay lugmok sa gawain. ang totoo'y wala ako tamang pagiisip. Para bang ako ay nauulol. Dumating ang lingo at kami ng nananghali ng narinig ko ang kanta na nagbukas sa aking isipan. Aanhin ko nga ba ang kasikatan, ang dami ng taong napapadpad sa aking tahanan, at ang kasikatan na hindi naman magtatagal! Hindi ko sila kailangan! Kahit na ilang laksang bituin hindi kayang pantayan ang aking ningning ngaun na ako ay balot sa hiwaga ng pagmamahal ng aking nagiisang minamahal!!!

Ngayon ako ay nakakatiyak higit kailan pa man na tama ang aking landas na tinatahak. ano ngayon kung sa tingnin ng aking mga kaibigan at ibang mambabasa na mas maganda ang aking dating tahanan o masyado ng nagiging romantiko o malanya ang aking tema??? Ang importante ngayon ay ang kinang na bigay ng aking pagmamahal! Pagmamahal sa aking nagiisang bituin!!!

Isang munting kaalaman tungkol sa aming dalawa ng asawa ko. Parehas naming iboboto si Sharon Cuneta kapag tumakbo siyang senador o kahit presidente ng Pilipinas.

Love Song #2

Kung minsan ang pangarap
Habang buhay itong hinahanap
Bakit nga ba nakapagtataka
'Pag ito ay nakamtan mo na
Bakit may kulang pa

Mga bituin aking narating
Ngunit langit ko pa rin ang iyong piling
Kapag tayong dalawa'y naging isa
Kahit na isang laksang bituin
'Di kayang pantayan ating ningning


Balutin mo ako ng hiwaga ng iyong pagmamahal
Hayaang matakpan ang kinang na 'di magtatagal
Mabuti pa kaya'y maging bituing walang ningning
Kung kapalit nito'y walang paglaho mong pagtingin

Itago mo ako sa lilim ng iyong pagmamahal
Limutin ang mapaglarong kinang ng tagumpay
Sa piling mo ngayon ako'y bituing walang ningning
Nagkukubli sa liwanag ng ating pag-ibig

"Aanhin ko ang dami ng mambabasa ni Dark Knight kung ang kapalit naman nito ay ang kaligayahan ng bebhe ko." - Anon

Friday, August 3, 2007

The Phrase

It was the day after my birthday. I didn't went to work nor did my Bebhe last night and spent it making love. Since we slept late the night before, we woke up past ten in the morning. Feeling refreshed, I got up and took a bath. While showering, I heard my Bebhe stir. What happened that night flashed back to my memory. I made my decision.

After my quick bath, it was my Bebhe's turn. As he showers, I went to the kitchen and looked for something to cook. I found some noddles and sauce. I will be cooking my specialty that day. Italian Spaghetti. I want this day and meal to be very memorable for me and my Bebhe. So as soon as my Bebhe went out of the showers, I grabbed him and kissed him passionately. He asked me half laughing "What's with you?" "Nothing" I replied smiling and went back to cooking. I felt his hands wrap around my waist as he kiss me in my nape. I turned and kissed him again. I pushed him softly and told him to prepare the table for lunch. He obliged.

After our little lunch, I got nothing but praise from my bebhe. Although I know he's bias, I was still giggling like a little girl. So to hide my already red face, I started to clean the table. My Bebhe stood up too and assisted me. After we have cleaned the dishes, we went back to bed and watched some TV. I know time is not the essence but I can't seem to get the courage I need to say what I want to say. I ended up just looking at him admiringly. He noticed it and gave me a kiss. I don't know why I was so scared of saying it when I am sure more than anything in the world about it. So time passed without progress while we continue to watch some TV programs. When I finally got the courage I need, I turned as saw my Bebhe already dozing off. I smiled and hugged my Bebhe and whispered to his ears how much I need him in my life. After that, I dozed off too.

I woke up when I felt something cold against my skin. I opened my eyes and saw my Bebhe kissing me. I kissed him back.

[Insert Bed Scene]

After that, we lay there for a while. Then a feeling so intense came over me. I just hugged my Bebhe real tight, kissed him passionately and said it.

Teary eyed, my Bebhe returned my kiss and whispered to me "I love you too".

"What's important is the journey, not the destination" - Anon