Wednesday, January 30, 2008

The Cat is out of the Hat

I tried to keep from MB what happened. He already has too much on his mind for me to add my own problems. Unfortunately, I seem to forgot to ask the people I told to keep it under wraps for now. Until I can tell MB that is. But things do seems to happen outside of your plans. And a couple of days ago, I was confronted by MB about what friends are saying on their blogs as well as on my cbox.

At first, I tried to deny everything. I guess it's just my natural reflex to deny whatever I tried to hide. But as the day goes by, I finally cave in and confessed everything to MB. Unfortunately for me, it came a little too late. And for the first time in a year of living together, we haven't spoken for 3 days.

Usually, after the first couple of hours, I will console MB and asked for forgiveness. But this time it didn't happen. I'm guessing that the events have indeed taken it's toll physically and emotionally that I was no longer able to patch things up with MB just like before. At first, I'm always saying to myself that I'm just taking my time. Phasing myself before I face another issue in my life. Convincing myself that everything will turn out just fine in the end. But as the day goes by, as I pick up the pieces of my heart and soul that was broken, I realized that everything will not be ok. Not unless I do something about it. Not unless I'm strong enough to trudge on.

In the end, I was able to mend my relationship with MB. I know for now it will not be the same as before. But as time goes by, the wounds will heal. I know it will. I need to believe it will...








"There's only one constant thing in this world. That's change." - Anon

5 comments:

blackdarkheart said...

kaya pala! hmmm, buti naman ok na kayu ngayun. im happy to know that you have patched things up with your hubby! keep on doing things that are good! keep it up!

wanderingcommuter said...

you have my fingers and finger toes cross, dude!

davenport said...

take care and regards to mb..

"Tell me and I’ll forget
Show me and I may remember;
Involve me and I’ll understand"

Anonymous said...

KAFATID, just keep on believing all wounds heal.......

Mink: The Arabian Paladin said...

keep on lovin'

:)