The Cat is out of the Hat

I tried to keep from MB what happened. He already has too much on his mind for me to add my own problems. Unfortunately, I seem to forgot to ask the people I told to keep it under wraps for now. Until I can tell MB that is. But things do seems to happen outside of your plans. And a couple of days ago, I was confronted by MB about what friends are saying on their blogs as well as on my cbox.

At first, I tried to deny everything. I guess it's just my natural reflex to deny whatever I tried to hide. But as the day goes by, I finally cave in and confessed everything to MB. Unfortunately for me, it came a little too late. And for the first time in a year of living together, we haven't spoken for 3 days.

Usually, after the first couple of hours, I will console MB and asked for forgiveness. But this time it didn't happen. I'm guessing that the events have indeed taken it's toll physically and emotionally that I was no longer able to patch things up with MB just like before. At first, I'm always saying to myself that I'm just taking my time. Phasing myself before I face another issue in my life. Convincing myself that everything will turn out just fine in the end. But as the day goes by, as I pick up the pieces of my heart and soul that was broken, I realized that everything will not be ok. Not unless I do something about it. Not unless I'm strong enough to trudge on.

In the end, I was able to mend my relationship with MB. I know for now it will not be the same as before. But as time goes by, the wounds will heal. I know it will. I need to believe it will...

"There's only one constant thing in this world. That's change." - Anon