Thursday, December 27, 2007

DK's End

I was browsing through my files when I found the letter I wrote to MB before I closed my old blog. As I read it again, my heart ached. I remembered how much I hurt MB by acting so foolishly. And now, as the year is drawing to a close, it will serve as a reminder of how close I came to losing MB.

Bhe ,

I'm sorry for acting like a jerk and being stupid for the last couple of days. I know I have hurt you so much and that you may not be able to trust me again. I'm really sorry.

For the last couple of days, I have been trying to end my connection with Jon, the friend who asked me to be his PA. He was the one who keep on calling me and sending me messages. He's also the one who called me "Beb". He asked me if it was ok. I said "bahala ka". I am ending my friendship with Jon because I know it hurts you to see us together knowing that he has other intention than friendship. I just can't seem to figure out how to do it without hurting that person. But believe it or not, I am going to end whatever Jon and I had today.

I love you so much. I have not invested this much emotion in a relationship before. Actually, I never cried before about my relationship. Even with John, when he left me, I didn't cry. Because I know I can move on. But with you, I can't live one more day without you. And I don't think that I can do it again with somebody else. I can not see myself with anyone but you. You are the only person in my mind, my heart, and my soul.

I guess I should stop here. I left the keys to your dorm, our love nest, here. I will be going back to Pasay for a while. Not because I am giving up in this relationship. Because bebhe, I will never let this relationship end. I love you so much to do just that. I would rather die than to let you go.

I will be closing my friendster and other networking accounts. I will be closing the blog today as well. I don't need it if you're not by my side.

Mahal na mahal na mahal kita. I also left my phone here. I will not be using it anymore. It's just going to be a temptation.

I love you so much


Everybody has a problem. And my relationship with MB is not an exception. Many can attest to that. It is not always perfect. But it's how many times I get up that counts. If I stay down, nothing will happen. If I argue, nothing will be achieved. I know. I've been there.

"Falling in love is just like that. You fall and hope. Hope that he catches you."


frisian keeper said...

may wrong spelling sa dulo nye he he

biro lang.. stuff like these are reminders..

Mink: The Arabian Paladin said...

siguro sometimes nga, distance is good as well as silence. Kasi pag tahimik dun mo maririnig yung pintig ng puso mo eh, at dun mo rin matatanto ang tibok ng puso nya. and the line :

I would rather die than to let you go.

said it all.

macoy said...

"I also left my phone here. I will not be using it anymore. It's just going to be a temptation."

i wonder kung ano na nangyari sa makasalanang celphone na yun ngayon? hmm.. parang mas magandang palitan yung phrase ng:

"I also left my phone here. I will not be using it for the meantime. Im going to avoid temptation temporarily."

hahaha. joke! :)

TL said...

@Frisian Keeper thanks for reminding me :) Stuff like this are always welcome here

@Friendship namimiss tuloy kita lalo :)

@Kapatid hahaha loko ka! Wala na ung phone na un nilagay na sa baul kaya talagang dapat "I will not be using it anymore." Hahaha